I’ve been wanting to try blogging for a while now but haven’t taken the leap…. until now. Honestly the thought of starting my own blog terrifies me. What amazing information do I have to share with people? Nothing. This answer might not be what you wanted to hear but its true. I have nothing exceptional to share with you, just me, my experiences and life.

I am here to share my journey and maybe even inspire a few people to take their own. I want to better myself mentally and physically. I want to love myself more, I want to challenge myself to become the person I have always wanted to become but have felt unworthy or inadequate to do so.

Truth is I was in a terrible state of mind. I had all of the tools I needed, to become the person I wanted to be right in front of me, but I didn’t see them until now. What did I need you ask? Myself. I know corny answer but I needed myself to stay accountable, I needed myself to say focused, I needed myself to show up even when I didn’t want to. I once heard from someone that “If its worth doing, then its worth doing half assed”. Meaning if I can’t do the full thing (whatever that thing may be) for mental or physical reasons its still worth doing halfway, because at least its something rather than nothing.

I workout to better my health, for my physical health and my mental health. There are days I tell myself to go workout, to go be active, I feel my whole body sag and feel like I can’t. So I show up, whether I show up for 5 min of stretching or I do a full on workout class, I showed up. I leave everything behind me on the floor. When I am done I think to myself can I do more? If the answer is yes then great I keep going and if the answer is no, that’s ok too because at least I showed up.

I focus a lot on my mental health, being a teacher in a pandemic while also planning my wedding is a lot of stressors consistently weighing on my shoulders. I journal for starters, take long hot showers (I would take a bath but my tub is way to small), I chat with friends (when my social bar is still full), and I ask for help from my amazing fiancé who is always there to catch the extra burdens I am carrying with me.

I try my best, that’s all it is. Sometimes, and when I say sometime I mean all the time, I mess up or my mental health has a terrible day. I do what I can to work through just like everyone else. I want to tell you all of my experiences, the hardships and the adventures, and I cant wait to share them with you.